Lots and lots of thoughts in my head.

It crossed my mind today during chapel how it is worse to not listen to a speaker simply because one does not like the speaker, how we are so quick to put on earmuffs rather than listen to someone; just as it is bad to lack the spirit of worship because of being distracted by one's own preference of music or style. For by not listening or listening only to criticize and find something wrong, we may miss a whole lot.

I will grant that someone may not have the authority to speak in the name of God, but can we not only find this out be listening to what they say? What about when we witness someone's life and not living what they preach? We are to test the spirits but we should also be testing our own.

We see the same thing happening at the denominational level. Difference in perspective blinds us to the unity we have in Christ.

       <"Learning Teacher"> 1:19 PM 

 

   I have a new addition to my little blog family.

My main new blog can be found here and there will i most frequently update. So, although I may pop in here from time to time, keep a closer eye on Mathematics Factorial.

       <"Learning Teacher"> 7:37 PM 

 

   what is logic? where did it's definition as we "know" it begin? is it based on someone else's subjective view where the logical answer to the question is what they think is right? based on their logic? is logic not really subjective? It can't be fully based on fact and reasoning, for there are different types of logic, based on morals, truth, sanity, rationale. What is the history of this thing called logic?

       <"Learning Teacher"> 11:55 PM 

 

   it was a beautiful wedding, very unique and such. i'll have to post more about that later. if i ever get time again.

when we get the other blog working right, i'll redirect you from here. i was going to say something interesting, but alas, since i've forgotten already. oh well :-)

right now, i have lots of catch up stuff to do.

       <"Learning Teacher"> 1:45 PM 

 

   we leave tomorrow! we leave tomorrow!

yes, i'm excited to finally be getting out of here. in two days, i see my wonderful boyfriend. and than have fun (hopefully nothing negative) with all the extended family rolling into Texas for the older brother's wedding. I even get to pick up my sister and brother-in-law from the airport thursday morn, and have been warned that i'm expected to entertain my nephew, who prayerfully, will be joined by another in august. they're hoping for a girl--the chances are slimmer than 50/50 if you know that ryan's family is under the curse of lots of guys...one female per generation.

it was really nice to get three weeks worth of clothing into one suitcase versus three. it's strange to be taking back empty suitcases and than other suitcases still with room to spare! yeah, so interesting i know.

i probably won't post until sunday or so. unless i manage to snag some time on a computer at the camp's office, but we'll see. there are lots of cousins around and what not. and than, it's back to LU! and my computer and t-1 internet access. not the best but better than dial-up.

for now, i'm off and away.....

       <"Learning Teacher"> 11:15 PM 

 

   Well, as I see other reflecting on the year of 2003, I feel like I should too. I'm not going to go back through my blog, because I find I get depressed when I read various journals. Instead, I think I shall give you what I can remember of this last year:

January
After another long, slow fairly uninteresting Christmas break at home, I came back early to attend the Winter Impact retreat at LU. It didn't match up to either of the previous two I had attended and I was fairly disappointed although I had good times with friends on the floor and fell in love with classic black and white films after watching "Breakfast at Tiffany's". Than started the spring semester of my sophomore year. I was taking the Contemporary Political Issues Seminar, Number Theory, Linear Algebra, Old Testament Backgrounds, and General Letters and English Lit I. I was also in a dating relationship, which ended this same month. I don't remember anything very interesting about January other than the Friday Night Bible studies going through Ecclesiastes continued to be good, I was happy to return to the same roommate (I miss you gorgeous) and my friendships on the floor continued to grow as we shared moments. Oh yes, MWF mornings with Jenny. Coffee and talk and basically making sure each was awake for the 815 English lit. That was to be a fabulous part of my semester routine. I also began work at Common Grounds and loved it.

February was considerably more interesting. For Valentine's Day, friends and I, after a failed attempt at Texas Roadhouse because of time, picked up and cooked some food and had much merriment. And of course I can't forget the other event centered around that same time--the satirical post made by the cynic in which i became one of the frenzied wenches and made the mistake of letting other female friends into a classroom discussion. About this time I think also began the Monday night meetings in the courtyard after Historiography for some, and church Bible Study for me. New friendships started as I also had one friend who came and sat with me during afternoon coffee shifts, and than others began too also. There was the stealing of Stitch and the Judge and the taking of pictures. Life was good. Somehow, I also found myself bringing food to the "Honors" Friday night Bible study. Another bit of February found me begin to waste precious sleep due to LU forums.

March
began with the introduction of myself to the blogging world. Spring Break was...interesting. I enjoyed meeting my nephew and spending time with sister and family, and gaining new insight to friendships of those with whom I traveled. New places were seen; my car had broken down; and the week covered the extremes of negative emotion to positive emotion. School pace picked up as usual after Spring Break for I had many papers due in a few weeks, which of course, I was delaying as long as possible. As new friendships were flourishing, other friendships were dying along bad lines. I made the decision and arrangements to stay for the summer and continued on the journeys of what was wrong with my heart as I planned for a cardiac MRI at the beginning of April. I made some forum friends.

April was the usually insane month of academic work. Presentations and papers abounded every week. "Honors" Bible Study entered into Habakkuk. the routine aspects of my life continued to be blessings. Other friendships began to be strained due to other dying friendships, although it wasn't too bad. I began to question the concept of the Trinity after studying Milton and enjoyed learning about another mathematician/theologian/philosopher in Pascal. Education grew in passion as I studied it in light of ancient Israel. General Letters had me thinking about lots of interesting things like apostasy and predestination. and I officially added a Biblical Studies minor. I made plans for summer school classes and roommates and awaited more tests and another doctor visit. and I dreaded the end of the month and school and the going away of friends like I hadn't before. Before I knew it, I was facing May.

I began with yet another doctor visit and was put on an a month-long event monitor in a few weeks. I also spent intensive time for two weeks in an education class but enjoyed afternoons and dinners with other residing friends as I wasn't working yet. Memorial Day week found me in Colorado spending time with sister, brother-in-law and nephew and attending the graduation of my little bro. Many fun days were spent in Thomas lobby on the couches. Other nights were spent cursing the fire alarm. The only thing I enjoyed about that dorm was being able to set up the furninture to my liking. I also read many books; some of them being enjoyed upon the berm.

June found my work plans changing as the first two weeks went badly with the looked-forward too job of summer camps. I enjoyed making things with the kids, like rockets and such but the other conditions... So I picked up a part-time job with Physical plant. Other things about my life were changing, such as dorm to apartments, relationships with people. I slacked off my way through data structures and remained frustrated with programs but had the excellent help of the cynic. I visited some places around campus and found myself in the doctor's office on the last day of the month. I recommended to get a pacemaker. I drove back to Longview, ran errands picking up new glasses, and spent an evening with Scholl only to get sick from nerves and what not.

July went better than June. My sister and family came down on a last-minute visit for the Fourth of July weekend and I made plans to visit with them and cousin and aunt and uncle a little ways away. I also began full-time work at Physical plant. Halfway through July I found myself once again in a dating relationship to the suprise of everyone including myself and after a month of rumors floating about. My summer camps job didn't exist anymore and thus I found myself learning about taking care of carpet and waxed floors and enjoyed many fund days with Lisl and Lindsay on the job and hearing things that I didn't want to hear. I decided to delay the pacemaker and see how I did, because I seemed to be getting better. Friendships were in the same process of changing for good and bad. Apartment life was teaching me a few things about living with other people.

August saw me finishing up LU summer life and work, visiting family and picking up a car so as to sell the red one, and looking forward to having friends back. IMPACT was okay but I spent most of it sick in bed. and than began the fall semester of school. I picked up another ten hours of work in the week and also began my role as chaplain after being Themelios for a week. I was also now a manager at Common Grounds in addition to making coffee and classes began.

The next few months mostly consisted of trying to keep all of my life in balance. I spread myself thin. But there were interesting moments. September was fun as we visited various churches and began Sunday nights of dinner and movie. We began studying Galations in "Honors" Bible Study. Friday nights were mainly reserved as nights with Josh. and I also began to enjoy studying the Inklings and their writings and wrote the beginning of a fairy tale. Symphony was a beautiful night with a meal at Applebees. October had the enjoyable Fall Break weekend of bumming around playing Trivial Pursuit, poker, and watching movies and sleeping. I also had an enjoyable few hours with my older brother and his fiancee. The car still didn't sell and I was dealing with floor frustrations. Fall Fest week was not what I could have wished it for honoring our king. This continued into the first of November, and there I enjoyed quite the evening out with my dear boyfriend. It was a good meal with somewhat good entertainment. I wrote a paper on female roles in the church and on the relationship of Joy's life to Till We Have Faces. The month progressed mostly along the same lines with Thanksgiving me an enjoyable short break into December. Then I began to get sick while finishing up classes. I planned and enjoyed a wedding shower for one friend and worsened at how I was feeling only to find out I had mono and then changing plans for Christmas within a few days of leaving. It sucked but has worked out well. I managed to finish all my finals and pull off a 4.0 for the semester amazingly enough. After witnessing an interesting wedding that was unique to the couple in a good way, and than managing to make it to a party of a group I hadn't attended awhile, I tearfully watched Josh get on one plane in Dallas while I waited for another. I spent the rest of the month reading, sleeping, and laying on the couch all day long. Although I did make it out for an afternoon in Crested Butte for "Return of the King" and another afternoon for using parental money to get a few things shopping in Montrose.

and thus begins 2004. anyways. i hope that was somewhat interesting. I realize I have left out a whole lot but, oh well. I have nine months of blog for 2003 to make up for it.

       <"Learning Teacher"> 12:35 AM 

 

   blogger has gone nuts methinks.

       <"Learning Teacher"> 11:01 PM 

 

   May

your integral from 10104 to 123104 of day with respect to seconds be God blessed.

:-D

       <"Learning Teacher"> 10:59 PM